Unspoken Words

i could use a wish right now

2010-08-02T08:43:00.001-07:00

i could use a wish right now.
a wish to make my heart feel better.

i could use a wish right now.
a wish to have someone by my side to make me smile.

i could use a wish right now.
a wish to let my thoughts be simple.

i could use a wish right now.
a wish to have you be able to read my complicated heart.

But when?

2010-07-16T11:49:00.000-07:00

I see the joy people have when they step into a new chapter in their life, exchanging vows... I yearn the same.

If I could use a wish right now, I wish you could read my mind.

bitter sweet

2010-02-25T09:47:00.000-08:00

let's not be like the empty bench...

as days go by.

i think about you.

not that i miss you.

i just wanted your presence.

but i didnt want you around.

i'm caught between your feelings and mine.

they are not on the same side.

how long are things gonna be like this.

i hope you are alright.

i hope we are alright.

i hope things goes right.

i felt bitter sweet when you called.

let me feel good for once.

let the good old days be back.

hard candy

2009-12-05T22:52:00.000-08:00

Sucking on my hard candy now, trying to inspire myself to write something great today.
A proper entry, proper punctuations, no short form.

So here it goes... I've learnt something great over the years while making friends and no doubt I've been making only a fraction of the right ones and the rest are all gone, forgotten or simply not worth keeping at all. I have come to my senses that a friend, is someone who shares the good and the bad. Okay, definately a cliche but it's really true. I'm sure we all had chin wags with our friends, talking about the good and the bad of others. But this is also the time we see the true colors of them. If they bitch about other people, one day they will bitch about you.

Along with experience, I cannot emphasize how true it is. It is like, when your friend, took a picture of somebody and drew on it to distort that face. You can't help it but imagine yourself in that picture being distort by him/her one day.

Friendship is like hard candy. Made in huge chunks, stretched over time and snapped. It came out small and sweet. You kept going back for more. Until one day you realised your tooth decayed by that candy you've been enjoying.

every fraction

2009-12-02T06:35:00.000-08:00

how many fraction does your life have?

I would like to think i have a fraction of 4 in my life. a quarter of experience each time. it doesnt snapped nor feel draggy.

people always say, forget the bad memories and keep the good ones in. but does our brain really work out that way? unfortunately not! it is only why we can feel happy is because we remember the bad ones.

you see...life is a contrast.

i love the bad days as much as the good ones because it than make me cherished them even more and learn something out of that old thrashy bad life i always whine about.

so here i am, at the last fraction of my year...thrashy bad ones, but hey, i'm looking forward to a whole good one again. at the very least, i'm already feeling good leaving it!

my favourite quote always from the greys anatomy,

"Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.

2009-09-30T21:05:00.001-07:00

because nobody is bothered when it's happening to me. so why should i bother now?

the first step.

2009-09-19T09:12:00.000-07:00

it is a funny cliche to say that "people come and people go"

but sadly, they are etched to a part of your memories at the back of their mind even when they are physically gone.

let me tell you honestly, only strong memories will be etched at the back of your mind. and oftentimes they are not the nasty ones but the ones that are truly happy.

now it's the ego that kills us both.

do you have someone who leaves your life, but a part of them somehow still lives in your brain?
- i do.

do u regret it?
- ashamed to admit, but i do.

i put my heart down and honor my words, yours truly.

2009-08-27T19:34:00.000-07:00

"mixed feelings. why did you have to kiss me."

2009-08-26T18:32:00.000-07:00

40% of my time in an asylum. i should leave.
I need to run.

2009-08-25T08:15:00.000-07:00

too much sugar, i'm cracking.

2009-08-23T23:12:00.000-07:00

you make me smile.

you bought me coffee.

you gave me comfort.

you were there.

you are a sweet man.

you showed me stars.

you take away my tears.

but how can i fall in love with someone so close to perfect.

i want you to be there.

i want you to be forever.

and only friends are forever.

you know that.

2009-08-19T18:40:00.000-07:00

"when was the last time you were heart broken?

i still remember mine.

some songs that came along with your broken heart,

those songs will remain in you, forever.

and i mean forever."

2009-08-18T20:56:00.000-07:00

it was like being in coma for a day.
how can i not wake up.
how can i not feel anything.
i felt like i was near the bridge of death.
thank God, i woke up.

2009-08-13T01:39:00.000-07:00

a heart so cursed, you'll never want to know.

2009-08-12T18:41:00.000-07:00

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end

At first when I see you cry,
yeah it makes me smile,
yeah it makes my smile
At worst I feel bad for a while,
but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

2009-08-11T20:41:00.000-07:00

friends who are just a phone call away, you need them.
friends who demands your physicality there, ditched them.

2009-08-10T07:51:00.000-07:00

unique taste for man. another killer to my heart.

"how u look aint important, it is what's within you"

XOXO

2009-08-09T22:52:00.000-07:00

flexibility. tactful. you can only survive war this way.

2009-08-09T05:25:00.000-07:00

some people do not know where to draw the line - "hopeless" others said.

2009-08-08T22:22:00.000-07:00

"an option, a wise choice" -true heart matters most

2009-08-07T10:47:00.000-07:00

2009-08-06T20:23:00.000-07:00

it is only scandalous
if you still keep a bag of your love secret
in a friend's house...

would you still love someone...
...who painstakingly lie to you religiously
and you not know about it?

that bag of thrash in his house is disturbing to me,
it should really be sent back to him!

2009-08-05T18:49:00.000-07:00

"Spoilt brats like you, deserves a second chance, to be HURT"

2009-08-01T18:42:00.000-07:00

“I think we spend too much time wondering why we’re not good enough - we spend too much time over analyzing, over-thinking, and overreacting. We waste too much time putting ourselves down, so much that we don’t ever stop to see that well, we are good enough. You are good enough. We spend too much time with our heads down and hearts closed; and never get a chance to look up from the ground and see that the sun is shining and tomorrow is another day.”